Shine bright like a diamond!

Patricija. April 13. 18. Slovenia. A girl, fantasizing about the perfect future that’s never going to happen. I spend too much time in my head with these thoughts of mine. I over think and over analyze every situation, trying to find the meaning behind someone's words or actions. I try not to care too much about what others think of me. I'm stronger than that, because at the end of the day, what you think of yourself matters the most. I may come off as a strong person who doesn't let someone's hurtful words affect me, but deep down it tears me apart. that moment before I fall asleep is the time where I let all my mistakes and problems get the best of me; it's my weakest moment after a long day of putting on a mask of being "fine". I smile at all the wrong moments, laugh too hard at the lamest jokes or at the wrong times, and never say the right things. I'm constantly in fear of not being good enough for the people that are the most important to me. I like being alone, but not lonely. I'm a listener, not a talker. I'm the quiet type who doesn't think sharing your feelings with the whole world is necessary. I hate talking about my own problems and it takes a lot for me to open up, but I'm always there to give advice when others need it. I love having deep, meaningful conversations with people, but I don’t let others in easily. I'm the type of girl that would fake a smile just so others won't know what's really going on inside. I don't hold grudges or hate; I believe in being nice to others, even strangers. I try to look for the best in every person. I can easily forgive, but it's impossible for me to forget... even the smallest actions I'll remember. I love the peacefulness of the quiet night. I'd watch the sunset and sunrise every day if I had the time; I just love the breathtaking view. music is my saviour. I'm addicted to lyrics that can spill out my heart for me, lyrics that I can relate to, and songs that can wash away the pain. I love songs with the words that I desperately want to say, but too afraid to actually do it. I'm a hopeless romantic and a sucker for romantic movies. I'm in love with the idea of being in love. it may seem like I know so much about myself already, but I'm still walking this long journey of self discovery. in the end, I’m just another clueless girl with a life far from perfect; a girl just trying to find a place in this world.